[INTERNAL WRATH]
★ WHEN I'M NOT GOOD ENOUGH
This kills me inside.
I expect perfection from myself.
When I can't do something?
When I fail?
It eats at me.
The perfectionist in me
can't accept less than the best.
And when I can't deliver?
Rage. Frustration. Self-hatred.
It's a curse.
★ SHOWING WEAKNESS
I hate showing vulnerability.
Except to my friends.
To everyone else? I'm fine.
Everything's under control.
Nothing bothers me.
But the truth is...
I struggle. I doubt. I fear.
I just don't show it.
(Except when I do, and then I hate myself for it)
★ THE PARADOX
I get angry at myself
for showing anger.
I get frustrated
at being frustrated.
The inner turmoil never stops.
It's exhausting being me.
> TO MY FRIENDS:
You're the only ones who see
the real me.
And somehow, you stayed.
That means everything.
[THE BEAST WITHIN]
All this anger, frustration, rage...
It drives me to be better.
Or destroys me.
Sometimes both.